Dream or reality job

If you don't know me which I'm guessing is all of you, than you probably don't know that I'm currently completing Yr 9 at my high school. I know this is the year to make all those important decision that shape the future of my career and I know that must sound so stressful and nerve wrecking, but to me its another step to landing my dream job as a beauty editor in a magazine. Its always been a dream of mine and I don't think I realised that I wanted it to be my career until very recently.

think most people who are or want to be in a creative industry are dreamers and I'm exactly that. People often tell me that I'm over confident and I don't know if I was born that way or through magazines, but my guess is that it's a little bit of both. I think I have these dream of doing or becoming or having things that I believe I'll eventually do, be and have, like being a boss in a major magazine company, with an office in a skyscraper with a huge clear wall over looking New York City or meeting Marc Jacobs or have those machines that calculate which of my outfits match (you know the one in the movie Clueless).

I sometimes feel like I have this small, hard shell of overconfidence in myself and with a crazy optimistic personality. But I have doubts too and I feel scared that all this crazy future I see for myself is just a big far away dream. I feel time is always going too fast or too slow and never in time with me. I think the worst advise anyone has ever given me and I promise someone has told you this too is, 'don't stress go with the flow and everything will be fine.' That is bullshark, this world we live in is competitive, it's filled with talented people just like you and me, so saying to just relax and get everything handed to you is NEVER going to happen. We have to work for what we want and push ourselves to our very limit and this isn't going to guarantee me spot in the front row of Chanel fashion show or anything in the magazine industry except for maybe getting coffee runs for all the lucky staff, but we have to try. And that's why I think I'm so excited about making decision it's because, I finally get to start on my journey to turning my dream job into a reality.